Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Me Hitler
Hahaha. I don't know why, I just prefer doing this on my blog rather than posting it on Facebook.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Today's Personality Test Results
I've got the same "INTJ" before. So it really describes me. The later part, I'm not sure. Haha.
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| INTJ - "Mastermind". Introverted intellectual with a preference for finding certainty. A builder of systems and the applier of theoretical models. 2.1% of total population. |
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Introverted (I) 55.88% Extroverted (E) 44.12%
Intuitive (N) 54.05% Sensing (S) 45.95%
Thinking (T) 60.98% Feeling (F) 39.02%
Judging (J) 52.63% Perceiving (P) 47.37%
Intuitive (N) 54.05% Sensing (S) 45.95%
Thinking (T) 60.98% Feeling (F) 39.02%
Judging (J) 52.63% Perceiving (P) 47.37%
type * score * type behavior motivation
1 * 21 * I must be perfect and good to be happy.
7 * 20 * I must be high and entertained to be happy.
3 * 19 * I must be impressive and attractive to be happy.
8 * 18 * I must be strong and in control to be happy.
1 * 21 * I must be perfect and good to be happy.
7 * 20 * I must be high and entertained to be happy.
3 * 19 * I must be impressive and attractive to be happy.
8 * 18 * I must be strong and in control to be happy.
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Your variant is sexual |
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Speeches
I notice that more often than not, I put other ppl's stuff here. I don't write myself.
When I write, I write the lamest things.
Haha. I have some stuff I want to write.
But I don't think I've found the right words, right flow yet. :(
And I procrastinate.
Haiz.
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I just did my second Toastmasters speech last evening. It wasn't fantastic. It was impromptu although it was supposed to be a prepared speech. I find it extremely difficult to force myself to practice.
The problem with my speech is the content. It has to do with self-worth and all.
Some said it's vague, some said it's boring. It's vague - i guess it's because I'm not very clear about my topic. But it still had a sense of purpose - to explain why we should never judge others nor ourselves. Some said it's boring because it was done more lecture-ish style, that I should instead incorporate more story/personal anecdotes/to make it something the audience doesn't know. I'm like heck lah. It's not to say everyone in the audience doesn't judge. But then again, most of the time, the brain knows, the heart doesn't. That's why there's the need to add in a personal story, a personal touch, something I am still unable to do. This is why my Commonapp essay (open-ended US application essay) has no power. :(
Anyway, I don't know what I'm going to speak about next. So, in search of inspiration, I found a site that lists the "top 100" speeches in America's history. The speeches are soooooo long. I'm too lazy to read. But I see there're convenient links to some points of history. I'll explore it further later. I've only read & listened to one of them:
The Perils of Indifference - by Elie Wiesel.
Here's an excerpt:
Hmm. I don't know. :(
I'd like to say that there's nothing much I can do at this point.
Then I was reminded about Obama's speech somewhere.
I wondered, what's this "ripple of hope"? So I googled it.
Here's an excerpt of Kennedy's "Ripple of Hope" speech.
Hm... Obama surely knows how to make his speech sound flowery.
Hmm.. It sounds like there might be something I can do even during this holiday.
But what? What is it?
When I write, I write the lamest things.
Haha. I have some stuff I want to write.
But I don't think I've found the right words, right flow yet. :(
And I procrastinate.
Haiz.
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I just did my second Toastmasters speech last evening. It wasn't fantastic. It was impromptu although it was supposed to be a prepared speech. I find it extremely difficult to force myself to practice.
The problem with my speech is the content. It has to do with self-worth and all.
Some said it's vague, some said it's boring. It's vague - i guess it's because I'm not very clear about my topic. But it still had a sense of purpose - to explain why we should never judge others nor ourselves. Some said it's boring because it was done more lecture-ish style, that I should instead incorporate more story/personal anecdotes/to make it something the audience doesn't know. I'm like heck lah. It's not to say everyone in the audience doesn't judge. But then again, most of the time, the brain knows, the heart doesn't. That's why there's the need to add in a personal story, a personal touch, something I am still unable to do. This is why my Commonapp essay (open-ended US application essay) has no power. :(
Anyway, I don't know what I'm going to speak about next. So, in search of inspiration, I found a site that lists the "top 100" speeches in America's history. The speeches are soooooo long. I'm too lazy to read. But I see there're convenient links to some points of history. I'll explore it further later. I've only read & listened to one of them:
The Perils of Indifference - by Elie Wiesel.
Here's an excerpt:
Can one possibly view indifference as a virtue? Is it necessary at times to practice it simply to keep one's sanity, live normally, enjoy a fine meal and a glass of wine, as the world around us experiences harrowing upheavals?
Hmm. I don't know. :(
I'd like to say that there's nothing much I can do at this point.
Then I was reminded about Obama's speech somewhere.
But I hope you’ll remember, during those times of doubt and frustration, that there is nothing naïve about your impulse to change this world. Because all it takes is one act of service – one blow against injustice – to send forth that tiny ripple of hope that Robert Kennedy spoke of.
I wondered, what's this "ripple of hope"? So I googled it.
Here's an excerpt of Kennedy's "Ripple of Hope" speech.
Few will have the greatness to bend history itself, but each of us can work to change a small portion of events, and in the total of all those acts will be written the history of this generation. Thousands of Peace Corps volunteers are making a difference in isolated villages and city slums in dozens of countries. Thousands of unknown men and women in Europe resisted the occupation of the Nazis and many died, but all added to the ultimate strength and freedom of their countries. It is from numberless diverse acts of courage and belief that human history is shaped. Each time a man stands up for an ideal, or acts to improve the lot of others, or strikes out against injustice, he sends forth a tiny ripple of hope, and crossing each other from a million different centers of energy and daring those ripples build a current which can sweep down the mightiest walls of oppression and resistance.”
–Senator Robert F. Kennedy, June 6th, 1966
Hm... Obama surely knows how to make his speech sound flowery.
Hmm.. It sounds like there might be something I can do even during this holiday.
But what? What is it?
Monday, May 18, 2009
Why I don't like reading newspapers
I felt like doing a sequel. Haha.
1. Newspapers are boring.
2. Most of the time, you can't do anything about what you read.
3. Sometimes, it evokes sadness, and sometimes, it provokes dissatisfaction. Now no longer happy, how?
4. Watching TV is so much more interesting. Moving, colourful pictures, with story and drama too, all depicted, no need to imagine.
5. They make you think. So tired after work/study already.. what for tire myself out??
6. If they don't make you think, they're boringg. oops repeating point 1. But it has to be emphasized.
Ok. ok. enough. BUh bye. Maybe i'll edit later to make the quality of this post better.
Aiyah. Lazy lah.
1. Newspapers are boring.
2. Most of the time, you can't do anything about what you read.
3. Sometimes, it evokes sadness, and sometimes, it provokes dissatisfaction. Now no longer happy, how?
4. Watching TV is so much more interesting. Moving, colourful pictures, with story and drama too, all depicted, no need to imagine.
5. They make you think. So tired after work/study already.. what for tire myself out??
6. If they don't make you think, they're boringg. oops repeating point 1. But it has to be emphasized.
Ok. ok. enough. BUh bye. Maybe i'll edit later to make the quality of this post better.
Aiyah. Lazy lah.
The paradox of time
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
George Carlin
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This is another of Anna's Facebook notes which I liked. This negative part of human development is sad. There's definitely those who are on the other side of things. But reading this sometimes makes you wish people returned to super old times when things were simpler and more straightforward.
Then again, I'm not too sure whether the lack of development and the overall picture would be worth it.
Aiyah, why contemplate about this. So late already. I'm done with relaxing after the scholarship application. Goodnight.
This is another of Anna's Facebook notes which I liked. This negative part of human development is sad. There's definitely those who are on the other side of things. But reading this sometimes makes you wish people returned to super old times when things were simpler and more straightforward.
Then again, I'm not too sure whether the lack of development and the overall picture would be worth it.
Aiyah, why contemplate about this. So late already. I'm done with relaxing after the scholarship application. Goodnight.
Forgive the Excesses
I just finished my Maxis application. Hurrah! Yeah, I submitted it almost three hours late. I did not know it was compulsory to upload a certificate la. Didn't see the 'submit' button until I tried uploading it.
I'm such a procrastinator. But like, ideas don't come until the last minute.
On another note, I found this on Facebook notes. It was posted by Anna. I liked it.
It says a bit about a part of my current insanity and what I think of it.
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Oh, Lord, these excesses!
These sad excesses. So destructive of body and spirit, and bringing such sorrow into the circles of love...
Help us all to remember that excess in anything is sickness of the spirit. Whether it be eating too much or drinking too much or talking too much (and wanting love too much---wandering, seeking the not-to-be-found assurance of infidelity.)
Surely in going to these excesses we are sorrowing for ourselves, because life itself seems too much.
We reach for these crutches to enable us to sustain it. Or to comfort ourselves, to escape or to minimize its pain. Self-indulgence is surely only a form of self-pity and self-scorn.
Oh, God, forgive us these mortal weaknesses, and help us to forgive them in each other. Help us to understand that they spring from suffering at the core of the very soul.
Share with us your wisdom so that we will know how to help each other, sustain each other, comfort each other, provide such loving awareness of each other that we wont need the false assurance of these excesses.
Thank You for delivering us from self-indulgence and restoring our self-respect.
'I've got to talk to somebody, God'
I'm such a procrastinator. But like, ideas don't come until the last minute.
On another note, I found this on Facebook notes. It was posted by Anna. I liked it.
It says a bit about a part of my current insanity and what I think of it.
--
Oh, Lord, these excesses!
These sad excesses. So destructive of body and spirit, and bringing such sorrow into the circles of love...
Help us all to remember that excess in anything is sickness of the spirit. Whether it be eating too much or drinking too much or talking too much (and wanting love too much---wandering, seeking the not-to-be-found assurance of infidelity.)
Surely in going to these excesses we are sorrowing for ourselves, because life itself seems too much.
We reach for these crutches to enable us to sustain it. Or to comfort ourselves, to escape or to minimize its pain. Self-indulgence is surely only a form of self-pity and self-scorn.
Oh, God, forgive us these mortal weaknesses, and help us to forgive them in each other. Help us to understand that they spring from suffering at the core of the very soul.
Share with us your wisdom so that we will know how to help each other, sustain each other, comfort each other, provide such loving awareness of each other that we wont need the false assurance of these excesses.
Thank You for delivering us from self-indulgence and restoring our self-respect.
'I've got to talk to somebody, God'
Majorie Holmes
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Typically Considerate
Today, I had lunch at Geok Har's family's restaurant -- The Hakka restaurant in front of Delta HQ (which, by the way, is not bad and reasonably priced). Shirley, Ann, and me ordered food while waiting for Chin who was still in Mr. Moay's class. Most of the food came kind of fast. There were the meatballs, chicken, vegetable, and pig-intestine soup. We didn't wait till Chin came out lah. Later food cold already - not nice. So we ate.
Favourite dish was the soup.
Ann happily took like, almost half of it.
As I started to take a bit...
Ann: Remember to leave some for ah Chin.
Me: Yeah. The rest for ah Chin lah.
Shirley: What?!? You took like almost half of it. Didn't think of leaving some for ah Chin then ah?
Me: Ya loh! On Thursday night, when eating a plate full of pieces of like.. of 4 mangoes, didn't think of leaving some for me ah?
Ann: *guilty smile*
This especially applies to ice cream toooo. Actually, it happens with all of Ann's favourite foods... Hahaha. Terribly considerate sister.
Favourite dish was the soup.
Ann happily took like, almost half of it.
As I started to take a bit...
Ann: Remember to leave some for ah Chin.
Me: Yeah. The rest for ah Chin lah.
Shirley: What?!? You took like almost half of it. Didn't think of leaving some for ah Chin then ah?
Me: Ya loh! On Thursday night, when eating a plate full of pieces of like.. of 4 mangoes, didn't think of leaving some for me ah?
Ann: *guilty smile*
This especially applies to ice cream toooo. Actually, it happens with all of Ann's favourite foods... Hahaha. Terribly considerate sister.
Friday, May 15, 2009
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Why I read the newspapers
Sometimes, i forget why. then i wonder. why the heck i bother reading lah.
then after that, when i remember, i'm like.. isn't it like so common-sensical why people read?
then again, different people read for different reasons.
anyways, i shall gibber about it here. to remind myself when i forget - when i stop reading for long periods.
1. Know what's going on.
- to exercise democracy - must know what good/bad things that're going on with the government/political parties right?
- to react accordingly la..like those swine flu/sars flu stuff
- to find opportunities - otherwise i wouldn't have applied/gotten the asean scholarship (oklah. that time is shirley find wan.. ) - not just scholarships la... anything else also.
2. Get things in perspective.
- when read about the bombs in Pakistan, or about the Israel stuff, or about the undernourished/educated kids in Africa - it's a reminder to be grateful, that my difficulties/blunders/whatever could've been much worse. it also reminds me that there's so much that can and should be done. sometimes, they're so far and frequent that i become desensitized. but they're real.
- it expands the mind. duh. otherwise the world is just my home, my school/work, my family and friends.
3. Entertainment
- no. not just the comic section. it's just a pleasure to read sometimes. when there're a few good articles - insightful, satirical, or funny lah.
Since these are all that came to my mind just now. I think that these sum up my current main reasons. no. even though i sometimes like to read, i don't read all the time.. i flip flip flip through the local paper. and i go to www.iht.com, see the headlines, see the list of most emailed/blogged articles. and read if the article seems interesting. time is expensive. only read nice wan oni.
*
reminds me of my forwards.. oni forward nice nice wan oni.
eh. but i didn't forward for such a looong time already although i got quite a few not-bad forwards.
lazy oredi. oh wellz.
then after that, when i remember, i'm like.. isn't it like so common-sensical why people read?
then again, different people read for different reasons.
anyways, i shall gibber about it here. to remind myself when i forget - when i stop reading for long periods.
1. Know what's going on.
- to exercise democracy - must know what good/bad things that're going on with the government/political parties right?
- to react accordingly la..like those swine flu/sars flu stuff
- to find opportunities - otherwise i wouldn't have applied/gotten the asean scholarship (oklah. that time is shirley find wan.. ) - not just scholarships la... anything else also.
2. Get things in perspective.
- when read about the bombs in Pakistan, or about the Israel stuff, or about the undernourished/educated kids in Africa - it's a reminder to be grateful, that my difficulties/blunders/whatever could've been much worse. it also reminds me that there's so much that can and should be done. sometimes, they're so far and frequent that i become desensitized. but they're real.
- it expands the mind. duh. otherwise the world is just my home, my school/work, my family and friends.
3. Entertainment
- no. not just the comic section. it's just a pleasure to read sometimes. when there're a few good articles - insightful, satirical, or funny lah.
Since these are all that came to my mind just now. I think that these sum up my current main reasons. no. even though i sometimes like to read, i don't read all the time.. i flip flip flip through the local paper. and i go to www.iht.com, see the headlines, see the list of most emailed/blogged articles. and read if the article seems interesting. time is expensive. only read nice wan oni.
*
reminds me of my forwards.. oni forward nice nice wan oni.
eh. but i didn't forward for such a looong time already although i got quite a few not-bad forwards.
lazy oredi. oh wellz.
Rants - Closure for US applications
I've written about an introduction to US undergrad education for my juniors in the acjcboleh blog. It's more like a consolidation of links. hahha. Oh well, why write when there're so many authors who've said it well? :p
Btw, recently, the Wall Street Journal got 10 university presidents to answer their own admission essay questions. I SOOOOO wish I read this to have a better glimpse of essay-writing... oh well..
List of essays:
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*On second thought, few of the above are nice. Oh wellz. Read urself to figure out which is nice.
No. I'm not sharing mine. not now, at least.
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After all the stress put into the essays, the SAT exams, the money, the timeee, the mind bogglement, i only got waitlisted at three places. and i just submitted a sucky letter to two of them. and a pretty good one to one of them. but, chances are like 1%? sigh. oh wellz. might as well count it as zero.
oh well, life goes on. i've been blessed and good in some ways too.
look forward, i will.
Btw, recently, the Wall Street Journal got 10 university presidents to answer their own admission essay questions. I SOOOOO wish I read this to have a better glimpse of essay-writing... oh well..
List of essays:
- Barnard College's Debora Spar on daily routines
- Carleton College's Robert A. Oden Jr. on getting lost -- and found -- in Cairo
- Grinnell College's Russell K. Osgood on a historical figure that has influenced him
- Oberlin College's Marvin Krislov on a historical figure that has influenced him
- Pomona College's David Oxtoby on an experience that was 'just plain fun'
- Reed College's Colin Diver on an experience in diversity
- The University of Chicago's Robert J. Zimmer on "Living the Question"
- University of Pennsylvania's Amy Gutmann on her autobiography
- Vassar College's Catharine Hill on an influential person in her life
- Wesleyan University's Michael S. Roth on an influential person in his life
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*On second thought, few of the above are nice. Oh wellz. Read urself to figure out which is nice.
No. I'm not sharing mine. not now, at least.
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After all the stress put into the essays, the SAT exams, the money, the timeee, the mind bogglement, i only got waitlisted at three places. and i just submitted a sucky letter to two of them. and a pretty good one to one of them. but, chances are like 1%? sigh. oh wellz. might as well count it as zero.
oh well, life goes on. i've been blessed and good in some ways too.
look forward, i will.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
One of my favourite bible verses is Jeremiah 29:11
To know that it is and to accept that it is are two very different things.
For the first, one can be hypocritical.
Once the second is achieved, one becomes more liberated.
I have just finished my long-overdue last letter.
I only hope that it's worth all the mental disorder.
And I shall keep reminding myself of the above verse.
Now, I have to make an exam paper that is due tomorrow afternoon.
And plan my last week of classes.
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
To know that it is and to accept that it is are two very different things.
For the first, one can be hypocritical.
Once the second is achieved, one becomes more liberated.
I have just finished my long-overdue last letter.
I only hope that it's worth all the mental disorder.
And I shall keep reminding myself of the above verse.
Now, I have to make an exam paper that is due tomorrow afternoon.
And plan my last week of classes.
Friday, May 1, 2009
Sleepedidoodah sleepedideh
You know what?
Around me, all the people who admit they sleep a lot are super tall lah.
My youngest sister, the pig, who sleeps almost 11 hours a day everyday(until i returned from singapore), is taller than me by a lot a lot.
so not fair.
a few friends in singapore also like that.
in malaysia? ok lah. not so many uber tall friends, can't say.
actually, among my sisters, i sleep the least lah. all my sisters sleeeeeeeep a lot. maybe that's why i'm the shortest :(
unlike they, who sleep until 10-11am, i so semangat wake up by 8-9am, because i don't wanna miss hours of life when i can be playing, having fun, reading, or something, more concretely beneficial than sleeping.
i totally regret. sleep more. better. grow taller.
basketball didn't help.
swimming didn't too.
taekwondo didn't either.
exercises don't help.
sleep helps.
i'm gonna sleep more once i can.
aiyoh.. at this age, still can ah?
but still have to sleep early "for health" as mummy says.
Around me, all the people who admit they sleep a lot are super tall lah.
My youngest sister, the pig, who sleeps almost 11 hours a day everyday(until i returned from singapore), is taller than me by a lot a lot.
so not fair.
a few friends in singapore also like that.
in malaysia? ok lah. not so many uber tall friends, can't say.
actually, among my sisters, i sleep the least lah. all my sisters sleeeeeeeep a lot. maybe that's why i'm the shortest :(
unlike they, who sleep until 10-11am, i so semangat wake up by 8-9am, because i don't wanna miss hours of life when i can be playing, having fun, reading, or something, more concretely beneficial than sleeping.
i totally regret. sleep more. better. grow taller.
basketball didn't help.
swimming didn't too.
taekwondo didn't either.
exercises don't help.
sleep helps.
i'm gonna sleep more once i can.
aiyoh.. at this age, still can ah?
but still have to sleep early "for health" as mummy says.
Favourite Quotations
A witty saying proves nothing.
Voltaire
The only thing necessary for the perpetuation of evil is for good people to do nothing.
Edmund Burke
We all should know that diversity makes for a rich tapestry, and we must understand that all the threads of the tapestry are equal in value no matter what their colour.
Maya Angelou
We all live with the objective of being happy; our lives are all different and yet the same.
Anne Frank
Patriotism is to support your country all the time and your government when it deserves it.
Mark Twain
Always show the you in you that makes you the you that you are.
We must not, in trying to think about how we can make a big difference, ignore the small daily differences we can make which, over time, add up to big differences that we often cannot foresee.
Chidinma Obietikponah
We must not, in trying to think about how we can make a big difference, ignore the small daily differences we can make which, over time, add up to big differences that we often cannot foresee.
Marian Wright Edelman
If you will think about what you ought to do for other people, your character will take care of itself. Character is a by-product, and any man who devotes himself to its cultivation in his own case will become a selfish prig.
Woodrow Wilson
If you will think about what you ought to do for other people, your character will take care of itself. Character is a by-product, and any man who devotes himself to its cultivation in his own case will become a selfish prig.
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