So many deaths

In spite of the limbo that I was busy going crazy in (I wish it would just stop!),
there's been so many deaths recently, it calls for some attention.

It started with the Boston bombings on 15 April - three dead, and 282 injured in a country that is generally regarded as safe, during a community, health-building activity. An activity I might've joined.

Then there was the woman from Petaling Jaya EFC, a friend's church, who died due to stab wounds while on a jog with her daughter, in a failed snatch-theft incident on 20 April. One of her daughters who was studying in Australia had to return home.

Then yesterday afternoon, 23 April, there was a suicide in NUS, 21 years old, Peter, someone who smiles often, who is part of the University Scholars Program which I seriously considered entering, who is involved in sports, who has a passion for writing and the arts.

It was also reported that yesterday morning, an NUS professor's wife was involved in an accident.

So many deaths. And so many have something similar with me.
1. Boston friends, Marathon.
2. Mother, Church going, jogger, daughter who studies in Australia and writes in a way that reminds me of past grief
3. Peter, NUS, stays in the block just next to mine, probably bumped into him in the dining hall, he smiles a lot
4. NUS professor's wife, bus, Clementi

Death, it warrants news reporting. It is the end of life. Yet it seems meaningless in a way.

In light of this series of deathly happenings, I think I should write about why I cannot commit suicide, in case it may inform those who consider it and Google it.
For death, is something I've mulled over, and over, and over; emotionally, and rationally. I don't think there will be an end to it. I firmly resolved that I should not and cannot commit suicide; no one should.

It's something to write about during my free time, after these exams are over!

Or maybe I should write them now, when I don't feel like studying despite barely working on anything in the past week, when I'm in the state of limbo.

Limbo

I don't care about anything.

I'm in Limbo!

THESIS DUE SOOOOOON!

Anybody wanna read my thesis?