Saturday, August 22, 2009

Frustrations

It's quite frustrating to know that you've annoyed someone and not know why.
It's equally frustrating when you're annoyed by someone.. and you don't know how to appropriately let them realize it. Sensitive v. insensitive.

On a second note, I'm afraid of following the way the crowd thinks and works. Peer influence. Because I think that if i examine by value and principles, i might regret it later.

On a third note, being with nice ppl, n friends, rocks.

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Okay. I have to start catching up with calculus. I've been neglecting this morning class too much. I need to revise and read and check on everything. Qionging will be too difficult. Cannot slack! IBG why so busy!? Must not go for too many IBGs. Summore got non hall activities - uni/other - which i should put in more time, especially in the early part of the semester... time oh time.. choices and priorities.. aiyoyoh.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Small Ouches

Aiyah. I just realized that my impromptu speech that day can be considered as bitchy/badmouthing-generically-ish. I hope i will never do such a stupid and bad thing again. Think before speaking!

Altho there're some ppl who are tremendously irritating, I'm happy to find that almost every person I know, are good at heart. Yay! And quite a huge percentage are really nice.
So hurray for my block/hall, my old friends, my new friends! :D Oh. But my family is evil. Muahahahahaha! Shan't divulge here. Otherwise, the info might be taken advantage of.

The Inter-Block Games (IBG) basketball matches today were not so good. Aiyah. Not at our best. I was super rusty, and kept panicking and losing the ball. Some of the newbies don't feel good about not contributing much either. The first match was terrifyingly terrible. But not bad lah - the second match. Hopefully things get better later. Must keep in mind that the point of IBG is for bonding, not winning.



Current mood: Tired, happy, a bit worried.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Hypocritism

I hate it
when people say they believe in this and this value
but don't practice it.

What you do is so loud I can't hear what you say.

Oh, and by 'do', I also mean the things not actually done.


Disclaimer: I don't proclaim to be innocent.

A few rag pictures

Pictures stolen from KR Photocomm Facebook.


This is the float i helped to guard. And move. And make (i got rag rush a bit lah) (Rag rush = helping to mass produce the bits and pieces.)



The float is really detailed sia. The picture above is the back of the donut-clock (which by the way, can move its hands.. in a rather uncommon way though. haha.).




The teapot can pour tea okay.


The Rag Dancers.

Okay. Lazy to steal photos already.

Why Art

This is a talk Makoto Fujimura gave in Leesburg, Florida to the board of Leesburg Center for the Arts. It was originally published on Mako's "Refractions" blog.

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I always feel tugged when I see the above Van Gogh painting.
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"The aim of art is to represent not the outward appearance of things, but their inward significance."
—Aristotle

As an artist, I often find myself trying to answer “Why Art?” Why is art necessary in our lives and in our education? How can I justify spending so much of my time and expenses invested in being an artist, and helping others by advocating for their artistic expressions? Why do we need the arts here in Leesburg? We have now much research pointing to the economic benefit of bringing art into communities. We have efforts to scientifically prove that the arts help us directly in education, in improving children’s school grades, and helping them to engage better with their worlds. I can give you evidence of how the arts help slow down dementia and reduce stress. (see Gifts of the Muse, by Rand Corporation)

But usually, in these gatherings, I end up listening to people, by finding out what deeply matters to them. And I often find that in the areas that they are most engaged in, and most passionate about, art is already present in that conversation. The person I may be speaking with may not know anything about art in New York, but he/she may talk about their children’s dream to become a dancer or an actor. They may talk about a movie they just saw that affected them deeply. They may speak of their business enterprises and find out that now businesses are starting to realize that the “bottom line” is not really sufficient; but there is a “second bottom line,” or a third. Business schools are now inviting designers to discuss creativity and design, to apply these principles into business practices because worker are no longer content to work in “bottom line” driven companies, but they want their whole person affirmed, and they want community. What I hear these workers stating, is that they want their humanity back. And in that conversation, art always presents itself as an expression of that humanity.

I was recently speaking at a church in NYC, and asked the people what they enjoy doing on Sundays apart from going to church. And everything they listed had something to do with the arts and entertainment. Art is everywhere, from the food we order in restaurants, to clothes we purchase, to paintings hanging on museums. Aristotle defined the arts as “our capacity to make.” So we could broaden our discussion into medicine and sciences. Even if we do not include these sister disciplines in our discussions, one thing is for sure: Our cultural productions and our art will defines us, whether we like it or not. Art expresses who we are.

One of the most frustrating moments in recent memory, for myself as an arts advocate, was to see the Super Bowl half time show knowing, that for the first time, that Janet Jackson fiasco was being broadcast in China. What do the Chinese think of us now? We have come to define ourselves by how we degrade ourselves, and we have exported that vision to the world.

When I traveled with The First Lady to represent the USA at the UNESCO general assembly several years ago, one of the the UNESCO officials told us of her fears in America’s reengagement with UNESCO: “We are struggling to believe that the US can bring more than McDonalds, Coca Cola or Hollywood movies (I might add pornography to that list, but she was too polite).” We tried to convince her and other UNESCO leaders that we have a very unique patronage system that encourages our democratic patronage of the arts like the NEA and NEH. But it was when she connected with our projects with Shakespeare and Jazz Masters programs and touring of Martha Graham dance troops that convinced her that we were committed to a higher vision. These distinctively American forms of art, I would argue, are the greatest fruits of our democracy. And we have every reason to celebrate and broadcast with pride what freedom has brought us.

Tolstoy stated “Art is not a pleasure, a solace, or an amusement; art is great matter. Art is an organ of human life, transmitting man's reasonable perception into feeling”.

Art is a building block of civilization. A civilization that does not value its artistic expressions is a civilization that does not value itself. These tangible artistic expressions help us to understand ourselves. The arts teach us to respect both the diversity of our communities and the strength of our traditions. I encourage people not to segment art into an “extra” sphere of life and decorations. Why? Because art is everywhere, and has already taken root in our lives.

Therefore, the questions is not so much “why art?” but “which art?” We are presented with a choice. And this choice is a responsibility of cultural stewardship. Just as we have responsibility for natural resources, so do we have to take stewardship care of our culture.

What, then, does the current cultural ecosystem look like? NEA Research such as Reading at Risk, is pointing to a cultural epidemic of disengagement. The studies point to how we are reading less and less, but even more pronounced, in my mind, is how we are less engaged with civic activities, with nature (and even sports!).

The Columbine High School incident and 9/11 taught us that we can either use our imagination for destroy lives or to save lives. We have on the one hand a girl reading Macbeth (she wanted to be an actor) in the library, and on the other a teen pointing a gun at her head and asking her “do you still believe in God?” And she said “yes” and was shot. Her words affirmed the source of her life and salvation, and inspired countless others to express that belief: His actions prompted others to copy the destructive acts of horrors. On 9/11 we had, on the one hand, militant hijackers who took their imaginative vengeance into determined evil acts. On the other hand were firefighters who climbed the falling towers. We have to realize that before any of these acts were committed, they were imagined. We swim in the ecosystem of imagined actions. We do have a responsibility to that power. We do have a choice between saving lives, or destroying lives.

If we do not teach our children, and ourselves, that what we imagine, and how we design the world, can make a difference, the culture of cynicism will do that for us. If we do not take the initiative to love our neighbors by imagining better neighborhoods and cities, despair will take the imaginations of their children and turn them into destructive forces.

A few hopeful examples in the ecosystem of culture today:

1) Rafe Esquith, a National Medal of Arts recipient two years ago for his efforts among the Hobart Elementary School children of inner city Los Angeles, challenges immigrant children, many of whom do not speak English, to memorize and perform Shakespeare. In the recent ceremony announcing "American Masterpieces," a new N.E.A. initiative to bring masterpieces of visual art, dance and music to American cities, regional museums and schools, the First Lady and other guests sat in awe as two of Mr. Esquith's students performed Henry the Fifth. Beyond knowing their demanding lines, they gave life to the words and elevated us all in the audience. Their childlike but confident orations had a beauty and a deeper resonance, something that this nation desperately needs to hear and understand today when these sounds are too often drowned out by crass commercial noise. Our children's voices can be elevated, drawing the world's attention to excellence, and the nobility of civilization.

2) About 20 years ago, Mayor Joseph Riley of Charleston, South Carolina woke up one day and realized that being a mayor means that you are the chief architect and designer of your city. He came to the NEA and asked for help because he knew nothing about design. What a humble man. He states: “We mayors exhaust ourselves with lots of decisions – political, personnel, budget. But 100 years from now, there will be no real evidence of how we made those decisions. In contrast, a decision about the physical design of a city will influence the city and its people for generations.” Now the Mayors Institute has helped over 625 mayors become the chief urban designers of their cities. 8 mayors are locked up in a room with 8 designers without the media or their aids. They share solutions, and dreams. Then they go home to their towns to see how the real life solutions can also benefit the environment and the general quality of life. This effort was so successful that it has grown to affect leadership at the state level. I just attended a press conference with NEA chairman Dana Gioa and Former Governors Christine Todd Whitman of New Jersey and Parris N. Glendening of Maryland to begin a Governor’s Institute on Community Design that brings this transformation into the state level.

The Governor’s Institute is co-sponsored by the NEA and the EPA. Strange bedfellows? No, it’s smart to connect the two —again, it’s the issue of stewardship. The best design is most efficient, and friendly to the environment. The best design considers what the community needs first, and even her voiceless inhabitants. The best design brings beauty into our lives.

A journey of an artist in the ecosystem of culture:

I get to spend my days, thinking and imagining, painting and writing. I think about a journey that started as a child, simply wanting to draw and express, having encouraging parents, and being blessed with a wife who suffers alongside with me. The life of an artist is never easy, but I take it seriously because I know that imagination has consequences.

But I do, on occasion, go back to that question "Why Art?" Because it was a question I addressed to myself in a diary for a creative writing class in college, many years ago. My professor, wrote back in his comments: “Your questions are valuable, and I encourage you to push that question further, as many of the writers and artists have done in the past: 'Why Live?'”

Perhaps that’s why we need the arts in Leesburg. By continuing to create and imagine a better world, we live .

Green idea

I just read about how a church in Malaysia reduces its rubbish by replacing disposable cups with reusable ones. It's an extremely feasible idea and it seemed to have worked.

It'll be great to implement this in other churches.
Over time, it makes a significant green difference.

Quote of the day, and Rag

"The Best and most Beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or touched. They must be felt with the heart..."
--- Helen Keller

Today I just received an email from one of my ACJC teachers, who won an award for his spirit of community service. I remember friends telling me nice things about him although I don't know him personally. He ended his email with the above-mentioned quote.

Okay, he was actually quoting William Arthur Ward in his email, whom he supports, "When we seek to discover the best in others, we somehow bring out the best in ourselves."

On another note, about Rag...

(Lazy to explain what rag is about. Guess. Will explain if someone asks.)

Today I stayed at the SRC from 1.30am till 2.30pm like that for the sake of guarding/transporting the float and supporting the raggers.
Rag-helping is quite fun, especially when u see the people transporting the platforms looking like pirated-cd-sellers who're escaping the police. Hahaha. And also especially if u're involved in the rush in a less stressful way (like screwing on/off the beam for the front part of the float).

From observing the other floats since like 3am, I thought KR had a good chance of winning. But when the results were announced, all the other halls keep winning: eusoff, sheares, eusoff, ke7, eusoff, wth. Oklah. I really do think that they were pretty good too. Eusoff's under-the-sea colours are nice.. sheares's engineering for all their moving parts is amazing... ke7's ship, esp. the back part, is also very pretty... but still, KR's is very different from the rest and very detailed and nice too kay..

first heard KR's name for the Flag fundraising amount. (we raised like S$50k+ in a day okayy.. it was sooo tiring that day... oh. and i'm surprised that quite a lot of people gave like S$1 and S$0.50 coins, especially the older aunties. Not as kiamsiap as I thought Singaporeans would be. But the young working class people are still very kiamsiap.) ..

okok. back to rag... so then.. they announced the best Rag performance/presentation/what-is-the-difference-laaaa goes to.. not-KR-i-can't-remember... again where's KR??? Aiyah. Got no small awards, no chance for big awards already lah... got no mood to cheer edi lah.. and then when the last award - the overall thing which is the chancellor's shield i think - was announced.. everybody just cheer for the sake of cheering lah.. and then .. and then.. we wonnn! yay! wahahahaha.. makes the waking up early.. and the rag rushing worth it.. makes the seniors' 3 month effort damn worth it!!! WE DEFENDED THE CHANCELLOR'S SHIELD!! which is no mean feat kay.. before this, it was like an alternate year thing.. KR won a lot a lot 3 years ago.. and totally lost 2 years ago... and last year won a lot a lot... and this year.. well.. the pattern was indicating that history might repeat.. until the results were out!! haha. got a McD treat from the hall master at the end of the whole tiring thing.

oh bytheway, about the sun tan on my face... there're K and R patches of tanless-ness! Lesson learned: Never never paint your face when you're out and about during a hot day! aiya...

on another note. my room is really smelly. because i dropped my megahuge-dynamo bottle.. and the cover broke.. and the detergent spilled at the area around my doorstep.. and i think i didn't clean it well just now because i was tired and hungry.. and i have not cleaned it properly because i'm going to sleep and getting dirty before sleeping ain't a good idea....

but now. i regret. should've cleaned it properly eventhough i was tired and hungry.. it's so smelly... i'm leaving a big gap in my room door for better air circulation. sleep with door open.. -_- me no like. but better than smelly room. haihz.

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9 Aug 2009 edit: Okay, I slept with door closed last night. I think the smell's from outside my room. I realized that because my room is now very well ventilated but it still stinks for like a few minutes at a time (Reminds me of MGS's wakaf).

12 Aug 2009 edit: amount raised during flag. paiseh. remember wrong.

**pardon the messiness, this is, after all, a rummaged bin.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Short recap of things that happened

(in almost chronological order)

Met up with Ah Wei, Geok Nga, Peoy Gee, Wei Sze.
Moved into Kent Ridge Hall.
Went for Windsurfing Camp. (yes, i can do basic windsurfing!)
Hall Camp i.e. KR FWOC
- Energy low-ness
- Dating game
- Rag rush
- Suppers
Matric Day
- Sg-EU Talk
- Suspected Swine flu & the many sick with me
- Lost and found phone
- Lost and found matric card
- Grassy student pass photo
Gifts finally given
Home
- Mummy's Haagen Daaz cake O.O
- Chin's i-thought-only-can-get-consolation-prize-but-got-2nd-place essay
Yin
- Henderson Bridge
- Da Vinci exhibition
O-Week skipping
CORS


BUSY-ness again.
I'm missing the tranquility from the earlier months.