Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Booked-out

My exams are over.
But I can't borrow ANY of the books I wanted to borrow for this holidays.

They're ALL booked. :(
All the multiple copies of the popular books are all booked.
All.
ALLLLLL.

I shall stop here.
I think I'll have to go to the Popular book store and camp there if I wanna read those books.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

There

I just realized I wasn't there.

I'm such an idiot.

I've been listening to Princess Mononoke

Did I tell you before? Joe Hisaishi rocks.



I normally listened to Spirited Away. But now I'm addicted to this.

It's like taking a trip through a very satisfying story, though I must say that the conflict part evokes a lot of anxiety and slight breathlessness, which is especially acute now that I've 4 exams in the next 5 days.

Thankfully, the ending is very soothing and peaceful. And hence my exam anxiety disappears at the end of the song, because I know everything's gonna be fine regardless of what I think/feel/do now. Then again, I still gotta carry out my role.

When I say, “I am a Christian”

When I say, “I am a Christian”
I’m not shouting, “I’ve been saved!”
I’m whispering, “I get lost!
That’s why I chose this way”

When I say, “I am a Christian”
I don’t speak with human pride
I’m confessing that I stumble -
needing God to be my guide

When I say, “I am a Christian”
I’m not trying to be strong
I’m professing that I’m weak
and pray for strength to carry on

When I say, “I am a Christian”
I’m not bragging of success
I’m admitting that I’ve failed
and cannot ever pay the debt

When I say, “I am a Christian”
I don’t think I know it all
I submit to my confusion
asking humbly to be taught

When I say, “I am a Christian”
I’m not claiming to be perfect
My flaws are far too visible
but God believes I’m worth it

When I say, “I am a Christian”
I still feel the sting of pain
I have my share of heartache
which is why I seek His name

When I say, “I am a Christian”
I do not wish to judge
I have no authority
I only know I’m loved

Copyright 1988 Carol Wimmer

Forgotten Cambodia

There has been a huge influx of bad news.

1. The New York Times, ChannelNewsAsia, the New Straits Times, and the Straits Times all raised the Korean crisis.

2. Three of these newspapers (The first two and the fourth) also mentioned the NZ mine blast that killed 29.

3. But only one (Straits Times) mentioned the horrifying stampede in Cambodia that killed 350+ people.

I understand that 1 is of utmost importance.
But after that I thought 3 had more importance than 2.

I remember a few New Year's Day celebrations. I remember going for New Year's Day in S'pore - the first time with relatives, the second time with good friends. I remember walking along the bridge - the one near the esplanade, the one where you can see the fireworks. The crowd slowly built up as 12am neared. People were everywhere around me. My friends and I were somewhere in the middle of the bridge. We couldn't see the end of the bridge. Then the fireworks started, then ended. Then the crowd subsided slowly as everyone left in a rather organized manner to the train stations/carparks to leave.

But in Cambodia, as they celebrated the water festival yesterday, it wasn't as peaceful or safe, or happy. The crowd built up to cross the river to get to the island where the main events were held. This crowd built up until everyone was like a huge hamburger that stuck very well together. And then suddenly everyone started pushing so hard, it was difficult to breathe. And people fell down, and people shoved and stepped on people. It was so bad that people at the edge of the bridge jumped off. People in the middle aren't as fortunate.

The result, 450 people dead, and this does not appear on the website frontpages of 3 of the major newspapers mentioned earlier. I was pretty shocked that such an incident happened. I was first hinted about it through someone's Facebook update. Then I checked the news - nothing and i wondered what they were talking about. Then I saw the news on the Straits Times paper the next day. Then I checked the news online again, still nothing there. I don't understand why it's not there.

I also don't understand how such a tragedy could have happened yesterday. It's said that a rumour on the overcrowded bridge caused mass panic that triggered the stampede that caused this.

I hope Malaysia, despite our lack of compliance with rules, would never experience such a thing. Heck, I hope this doesn't happen anywhere again. It's like the mass murders I read about in my Southeast Asia module readings (which btw, I was surprised to find out to have happened).



And remember to always calm down yourself and others when there's a panic.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Lee Kuan Yew

I wanna read Lee Kuan Yew material!
After exams, see howw..

Some quotes

Some excerpts

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Behavior

Did the mind catch up with the body in growing up?
Don't be fooled by how you look.

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What we should do isn't necessarily what we want to do.
What we finally want to do is what we should do.

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Think long term vs. short term.

We begin and journey with the end in mind.

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A friend once called me irresponsible.
I waved/laughed it off.
After all, I 'couldn't' change that bad habit.

But it hurt sharply.
Because it was so true.
And the latter part, false.

Irresponsibility and immaturity are highly correlated.

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I just realized i used the word "angsty" inappropriately too many times.
Last year I was filled with angst.
Now it has diminished, thank goodness.

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Now, I shall convert my wrath into positive energy by studying v

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Quote - Time

Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity.


On the concept of eternity: It is not forever. It is not an extremely long time. It is timeless. It works outside time, like how Heaven is.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Finance fail

Screwed up big time in the final exam.

What's with me and finance. I seem to like it a little more than econs modules sometimes. Yet I seem to perform terrible in the exams. My class performance was good so far although my concept understanding has shown to be often just 'kinda there', and not solid.

OK. Sunk cost.
Time to save the other modules.

Why do I wanna get good grades again?